I know that a lot of you are huge school advocates, but for me, this just isn't an option anymore, and I don't want it to be. My family and I are sticking to our choices. I have accepted that my childhood is over, so there is no need to keep trying to get it back. I don't want it back to be honest. I want to start my life. I want to live on my own, make my own money, and eventually start college classes that will help me reach my goal one day.
I am ready for my life to start, and going back to school is only going to postpone it. I do not want that. I feel like I have been so wishy-washy, and I am sorry for that. It honestly makes my head hurt! Haha! I swear, this is my choice, and I am sticking to it!
So, come Monday, I am off in search of a job again. Hopefully by December/January, I will have that job in the medical office. By October I am going to have my GED, and I am still pushing Matthew for child support. I pray that by the Summer of 2010, Lyla and I will have an apartment in town. Just the two of us. That is my goal, and I am going to do everything in my power to accomplish it.
Thank you, my friends, for listening to this crazy blogger. I hope your head doesn't hurt as much as mine. :P But I will leave you with this good news: Tomorrow I have my first ever PHOTO SHOOT!!! OMGosh! And its not just any old photo shoot, I am actually getting paid! Haha! YES!! I have a few more shoots lined up in the coming weeks as well. These are the kinds of things I want to do, not be in boring old school. I really am "to cool for school." And don't you forget it!
Love you all! Thanks for listening to me once again!
Kylee, whatever you decide to do I am sure you will do it brilliantly and will inspire those around you (((hugs)))
ReplyDeleteLouise x
Kylee,
ReplyDeleteI think you should go back to school. I mean, it's only a few months, right?!
In the meantime you still could keep an eye on job offers for next year.
I know how hard to decide it is what you want to do for the rest of your life.
You will be fine, I just know it.
Good luck with your photoshoots.
awh you changed your mind again haha!! well I hope that what ever you decide, works out for the best. Only you and your family knows whats best for Lyla and yourself, I support what ever choice you make. I know you're doing everything for your daughter :) shes very lucky.
ReplyDeleteYou are one tough girl! Whenever I read your blog I think of a poster my aunt has in her kitchen of a lady in a bandana and a rolled up flannel shirt showing off her muscles ;) I'm so proud of you for everything you have and want to set aside for you your world, lyla. I'm sorry it's been forever but i read your blog as often as I can and I just wanted to tell you that you're doing great...you have more courage than any teen mom I know! <3 xoxo!
ReplyDeleteHey, I found you link on babycenter. I love your page! I have just started my own, for our adoption journey and I'm still working on it and I could use some advice on how to change my background to a cool one. I am completely computer illiterate :)
ReplyDeleteany pointers would be greatly appreciated!! :)
Btw your daughter is beautiful!
Meghan